I used to think I had to live a life without passion or joy.

Three babies into marriage and family, I felt outnumbered and out of touch with myself, with them, with God.  And I had no time, I thought,  to discover what being in touch even meant.

All my roles, jobs and mostly my expectations for myself took everything I had. Whoever I was before I had to be everything got lost and buried in my life. And I became a mom at age 22 so who was there even to find?

Then God asked me to get an education.  What does that mean?  I had completed my BA in Marketing and I had 3 kids.  He said, I'll show you.  Bring your kids home from school.  Perfect.  Except I think that will make things worse.  He said, I'll show you.

Coming to know this was my path was an amazing experience. Moving forward on this path was freaky hard!

As I tried to do it the way I thought it should be done, the light went out in my eyes. I spent a lot of time depressed and overwhelmed.  I shed a lot of tears.  I was blessed with such a massive need for help that I reached out and found other mamas taking the family bull by the horns and they became a lighthouse for me.  These moms gave me vision, grace and introduced me to the idea of getting a "Life Coach".

What's a Life Coach?  Now we probably know but 20 years ago I didn't.

It's someone who sees beyond your playing field.  Someone space between you and your heavy emotions and expectations that helps you get clarity and momentum.  Someone who lives a life of truth, light and love who will hold a light up to help you see your own inner fire.

On my first call, tears welled in my eyes as I told her my fears, failings and feelings.  I was on a bucket, turned upside down, on the concrete floor of my unfinished basement, at what felt like the bottom of my life.

This is me, I thought, trying to do what God asked me to do!

And then, slowly, the game changed.

I went to school.  I became a Master Coach.

I learned the truth of who I am.  How the "doing so you can be somethng" model was a lie.  How being your real self is the greatest gift you can give yourself and the surest way to live in peace and joy.

I learned that I was whole and that me and God had EVERYTHING we needed to guide my life.  I began to see that I had a choice in ALL I did, in EVERY response to this crazy, beautiful life. I began to lean into my deepst values and it felt like I was tuning into my favorite song and I started listening to it all. the. time.

Then I chose an emphasis and created my own course.  God has gifted me with a beautiful brain that can see patterns and see truth.  I begain to see that I wanted to teach more, to bring to light the truth about how we perceive our world is what creates the emotions we feel.

Now I teach the truth that every woman can live in joy and fulfillment as they learn to love and accept themselves. I teach how authenticity and deep self care actually magnify what you give your family, and not dimish it.

I teach how falling and failing are essential to growth and that the journey IS the reward. That failing is just learning! And that feeling all the emotions is an important and essential part of being human.

And these mamas I teach change their beliefs to align with the truth and their world lights up!  Then they give their kids permission to be their best and brightest selves... including permission to fall and fail too. The effects have been incredible to witness!

I told my daughter, right before she moved across the country, to follow her dreams, but to always take God with her!  I told her I knew God had completely remade my life!

She said something I still tear up about.  She said Mom, just in my lifetime, I've seen you re-make yourself 10 times over!

And she's right.  I live mostly in joy.  And I love my 6 kids and husband.  I love God who has guided me.

I love all the women I have mentored and coached over the years. I love you mamas and know your power for good on this earth. I believe the hand that rocks the cradle rules the world, AND that having help learning HOW and WHY is life changing.

I offer that help. And love seeing moms like you learn to rest and leap and dance in who they really are... and live in that light.